Saturday, May 8, 2010

Being Introspectual

“Just tell me something about yourself.” I guess everyone must have been questioned this question a lot of time; at least I have been for number of times. I still remember the first time someone asked me this question. It was a long time ago; I was in school by then and yahoo chat rooms were very popular in youngsters and I was not at all exceptional. I had this big craze that, I used to buzz every single girl from the chat room and in reply girl from the other side used to ask me this question.


Like me many of you must have answer that question. The only difference between my experience and yours is the venue difference of that question’s arrival. Someone must have answered that question in a damn serious campus interview where everything depends on your answer or some of you must have face that question when you first met your soul mate in a arrange marriage’s first meet. There can be many such incidences where people have answered or questioned this question to others.


Like mention above, there are different incidences and worst part of the deal is that each incidence is drastically different from each other, so it is crystal clear that there is not a specific answer to this question. I mean answerer has to pick the moment and have to answer the question accordingly. It is bit ironic that people have to build the answer by understanding the circumstances of a question which doesn’t change whatever circumstances may come.

To be very honest, it’s not the nature of question which bothers me, but the kind of confusion it carries and questioner being unaware of his callous nature literally throws that confusion on you. I think it is unfair for the answerer being thrown into such circumstances. In situation like these, one has to be very smart to understand the expectations of the questioner from you; otherwise there is a big possibility that things can go south within fraction of seconds.

Even for a moment if we ignore the circumstances, the real question which come into my mind where I ask myself, is it really that easy to judge myself...???. I am not being pompous about myself, but sometimes I do feel like I’m bit Schizophrenic. Not exactly schizophrenic like people who are suffering from that decease, but I do feel that there are two people inside me.

There is one whom I represent to the world and there is other one – the real me. The one part which I show to the world is really cool. This guy is the reason why people have respect for me. This guy is very funny at times. This guy is very dominating. He is someone who doesn’t believe in traditional ideology. He will only respect the people whom he adores. Sometimes he does cross the limit of sarcasm, but world treat him like child and forgives him in the next second.

The other part of me is very boring. If he replaces the real guy in me then world will lose interest in me. People will prefer talking to birds than chatting with me. I mean he is real me. The one who feel bad when a tree is being cut down, he is the one who feel that he is blessed to be born in middle class and liberal family when he sees poverty in India through movies like Swades and Slumdog millionaire. At times, when I write posts in my blog I strongly feel that the real guy in me has took over the pretended Nikhil.

So when People asks me about myself then I do get very confused who is real me???......Am I the one who laugh on an adult joke or am I the one who cries on silly situations? I hope you guys are getting what I am trying to say here. Please share your views and your take on these weird situations. Have a great day a head. Best luck...!!!

8 comments:

Chetan said...

dude...i dont think u need to pretend to be something ur not... remember this... every human heart beat is a universe of possibilities... if people like u for wat u really r... its worth it...else its not... so just be ur self man..

Blog said...

keep searching abt urself... Dats d masala maker of a dish called ' Life'... Usually we become what people want u to b.. Only few people can answer dis question... If a girl ask u tell me abt urself? Answer wld b diff. For her n diff. For a boy.. Den wats d answer? U change day by day, hour by hour... So keep searching n enjoy d delicious dish....

Vedant said...

keep searching abt urself... Dats d masala maker of a dish called ' Life'... Usually we become what people want u to b.. Only few people can answer dis question... If a girl ask u tell me abt urself? Answer wld b diff. For her n diff. For a boy.. Den wats d answer? U change day by day, hour by hour... So keep searching n enjoy d delicious dish....

Vedant Deshpande

Addictedabhi said...

dude its ur attitude and nature tht every1 would look at!!!! be urself!!! do wat u feel is right for u!!! well the answer to dis is relly difficult at times because u hav to answer thm frm different perspectives at different point of time!!!! so change is required!!!! do wat u think is right!!

पराग said...
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पराग said...

Hey Bro, you have to furter describe the 2 different identities within urelf. I like the background how you taken all of us to the main topic but you did not justify the 2s inside you.
I really appreciate the situation of your mind which was twisted whie writing and it was correctly got expressed with the line "At times, when I write posts in my blog I strongly feel that the real guy in me has took over the pretended Nikhil."......

Well this dilema is never ended, everybody is pretending what he/she wants to be and not the exact nature of his/her own soul. Because its very difficult for everybody to know about his own nature. Anybody who claims that he is 'cool buddy', cant gurrentee whether he seriously gave a thought before claiming.

Its obvious reason that everybody makes the openion about himself from the openions of others about him and the perception of looking towards himself. ....

Nobody can understand whats the real nature and which one inside you is dominating you....

Keep searching, its never ended........

Prajakta said...

chhan lihila ahes....
actly apan tharavato kuthlya parishtit kasa wagaycha..apan konasamor kasa represent waycha te swatach tharavat asto.pratek nanyacha jasha don baju astat tasach aplya vagnukichya pan baju astat.ani apanch te tharvat asto kadhi,kuthe ani kasa wagava te.
eka mulene tula tuzhyabaddal akhi sang vicharla ani eka professor ne vicharla tar uttar vegvegali astil na? tasa ahe...
anyways good one i liked u r blog.
waiting for u r next blog
all the best

Anonymous said...

Nikhil,

Keep writing such blogs 4-5 times...then read all those thots...u will see some pattern of thots...you will understand where u r going....

btw chill man...dont worry too much abt such issues....just be honest to urself