I can’t comment on others lives but I’ve highest regards of
my life. May be I’ve seen too many western movies based in deserts such as
Mummies series or Prince of Persia but I think I’m no different than those protagonists
of such movies who holds swords with big muscular physique in their posters.
Often it has been written or spoken that how our lives are not at all related
to what we see on 70mm screen may be it is true. Sometimes you see things so
many times that gradually you start to notice what other people don’t notice.
It’s not the stubbornness and careless attitude of Brad Pitt’s attitude makes
him so much popular in Troy but the unfairness and the way he handles the
situation makes him so unique. Anyway, I’m not here to judge movies and share
its visual greatness.
It’s been a while since wrote my last piece. Last two years
have been mixture of both success and failure. While dealing with social boundaries
one gets little attentive, especially in country like India where the barriers crosses
the rooftops. Human tendency in such circumstance pushes him to hide his
failures and show the success. It takes guts to accept the defeat and start
dealing with it. Yes, I’m a failure. May be things could have been much
brighter than what they are. May be I wouldn’t be this tensed as I’ve ever been
in my life. I could have become the person who conquered despite all the
negativity and yet humbly smile. It’ss not the failure around you but the success
around you make even more conscious and pushes you hard to feel the regret for
your deeds.
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot and that might be one the
reason my hair fall but I think everything wrong and negative thing happens
with you for a reason. May be this eternal optimism I got from my father is talking but Yes, I’ve seen failures. Yes I’ve been defeated
very badly in last couple of years. I’ve
lost so many things which I would have cherished whole my life. But, on the
other hand I’ve learned the lesson which I probably wouldn’t have if I wasn’t that
failed. At 23, I’m serious young man who has plans to do something nice with
life. May be taking a giant leap of faith but I don’t think anyone of my age
would be this focused when they were 23 in their respective lives. If you
people were then I’m very sorry.
I’ve been talking so much about failure so much that many of
you will have your share of failure experiences to share with me which I know
will have deeper pain and impact in your life. May be the definition of success
is way different than what one might think. Some will say I’ve been successful,
many will disagree with it. It barely matters what other thinks, it’s what the
truth is and what will bring the positive change one would anticipate not in
your life but people who are anticipating from you. May be it is the western
influence on me or things are changing rapidly but I think I’ve started to
think to deal with the problem from the front rather than the ideal way benefiting
from everyone’s prospective.
May be I’ve been in the dark so much that every ray of sun
makes a larger difference in my life. May be I’ve seen things through one
dimension so long that I’m hunting new angles to justify my acts and the way to
get out of it. People have suffered because of me and they might suffer more
because of me. Sometimes I wish harry handovers the wand of Dumbledore to real
people!
3 comments:
May this Diwali should bring bright light of success in your life. Wish you all the best.
Its ok. Focus your energy on what best you can make of the situation. Everybody is part failure,part success :). I am a personal believer in the fact that the earlier you fail in life, the better you are prepared to face the coming failures. It changes your perspective.
Brother, it's all perspective...
If you are alarmed, it's good...
But don't make a judgement too soon..
As Saurabh has rightly pointed, everybody is part success and part failure...
In the meanwhile when you are treading the path of life, remember this quote...
पौर्णिमेच्या रात्रीनं बेभान होणाऱ्या फारच थोड्या माणसांना अमावस्येच्या रात्रीचं सौंदर्य पाहता येतं. ज्यांना ही दृष्टी लाभली, त्यांना सुखदु:खाचा भय उरत नाही. दोन्ही प्रसंगात देखील सौंदर्य टिपण्याची त्यांची तयारी झालेली असते...
(- स्वामी कादंबरी)
All the best Nikhil!
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